Excruciating Agony: A Personal Struggle With the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden sensation bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, similar to electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain behind one eye that persists up to several hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and men are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, severe agony around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like many causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the failure to plan life around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records suggest bizarre remedies for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by international medical committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

Official guidelines on treatment advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some individuals.

But leading specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Wendy Rodriguez
Wendy Rodriguez

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